Fear itself

January 14, 2017 • Posted in blindness, careers/jobs for people who are blind, Uncategorized by

I have a side job moderating the Easterseals national blog, and with the celebration of Martin Luther King, Jr.’s birthday coming up on Monday, a colleague there emailed us all this quote she found on a Friendship Circle Special Needs Blog post titled 10 Disability Awareness Lessons Learned From Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.:

People fail to get along because they fear each other; they fear each other because they don’t know each other; they don’t know each other because they have not communicated with each other.

The quote brought to mind an New York Times article called “Why Do We Fear the Blind?” that tried to explain why Blindness is the most feared and misunderstood of all disabilities — the article quoted everyone from the 18th century French philosopher Denis Diderot to modern essayist Christopher Hitchens to find the answer.

Really? It took famous philosophers and scholars to explain this? Let’s be real. People are afraid of blindness because, well, being blind looks scary. And maybe seeing someone like me, who is blind, serves as a reminder: this could happen to you, too.

Fear not. Odds aren’t great. Only 1.3 million people in the United States are legally blind. That’s not many. We human beings tend to be fearful of things we don’t know, though, and with so few of us out here, your chances of getting to know a person who is blind is rare.

The reporter who wrote the New York Times article described what it was like to put on a blindfold to try to understand what it’s like to traverse city streets when you can’t see. She can now feel proud about being sensitive enough to try walking around New York City with a blindfold on, but hey, we can’t take the blindfold off and wow our friends with stories of how scary that was.

People who are blind spend miserably difficult months with remarkably dedicated orientation and mobility trainers learning how to do simple things, like walk outside and mail a letter. After practicing and practicing, and getting around for years on your own with a white cane or a guide dog, it’s not nearly as scary as the first time.

Nothing to be afraid of here.

I started losing my eyesight in 1984, when I was 25 years old. Before then, I had a job advising college students who wanted to study overseas. The job entailed talking with students, checking out what programs might work for them, phoning different college departments or other universities to arrange for the transfer of college credits.

I was sure I’d be able to perform these tasks without being able to see. My boss, however, was equally sure I could not.

I tried proving her wrong. At first I didn’t use a white cane or a dog. I quit driving or riding my bike to campus, but I could still see well enough to walk to work with a walking cane (by chance Mike and I happened to have bought one as a souvenir during our honeymoon in Scotland months before, when I could still see).

As my eyesight got worse, I started making mistakes in the office. One morning I spilled grounds all over the floor on my way to make the morning coffee. I sat inches away from my computer screen to read the words. I ran into tabletops. At one point my boss took me aside and told me I wouldn’t be going to the annual convention with my colleagues that year. “You’ll embarrass the office,” she said.

Those were scary times.

By the end of that year, I had lost my sight completely. The Americans with Disabilities Act had not been passed yet. My contract was terminated. My confidence was shattered. How could I have been so naive? Did I really think I was worth hiring? Why would anyone employ someone who couldn’t see?

I considered pursuing a master’s degree in blind rehabilitation then, reasoning that if you work helping blind people, being blind would be an advantage, and I might get a job. After some soul-searching, I realized that with my personality I might be able to do more for the blind community by getting outside of it.

I am not shy, and I hope that just being out and about, using public transportation to get to the classes I lead and the elementary schools I visit with my Seeing Eye dog, doing things I like, and, well, being myself, might show people who might not come across a blind person in their daily lives that we are nothing to be afraid of. We can still live a full, creative, and pleasurable life.

It’s what I can do.

Alicia Krage On January 14, 2017 at 3:50 pm

I love this! I can say from traveling with you personally that you are quite a confident traveler. It’s wonderful to see. I absolutely love your book, too. It’s one of my favorites and recommend it to everyone I know. You have come a long way and I’m glad I can call you a friend and share travel stories and get confidence from you.


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bethfinke On January 14, 2017 at 3:57 pm

Wow. This means a lot to me, Ali. I learn a lot from you about assistive technology planning trips ahead of time and not being afraid to ask questions. You are courageous, too, espcially tackling your transfer from College of DuPage to giant Northern Illinois University. And what a coincidence: I am glad I can call you a friend and share travel stories and get confidence from you. Thanks for leaving this sweet comment. Ali.


monna ray On January 14, 2017 at 4:48 pm

Beth, I miss you. I think you do a very good job being you. Often when I am with you I catch having to remind myself that you do not see. Hope the book is shaping up. Monna

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bethfinke On January 14, 2017 at 7:09 pm

The nicest compliment anyone can give me is forgetting I am blind –that means we’re communicating and my blindness isn’t the most noteworthy thing about me. And so, Monna: thanks for the compliment!


MICHAEL GRAFF On January 14, 2017 at 5:45 pm

Beth, when you point out your blindness in your blog and in class I’m surprised because most of the time it doesn’t occur to me that you have that affliction.

bethfinke On January 14, 2017 at 7:24 pm

You writers in my Monday memoir class are sure making me feel good! Thanks for the compliment, Michael.


Sharon Kramer On January 15, 2017 at 9:35 am

Beth: you live a full and inspiring life for someone blind or not blind.

bethfinke On January 15, 2017 at 11:41 am

…and Sharon, you and your fellow writers in our Wednesday memoir class at the Chicago Cultural Center play a big role in keeping my life so full, creative, and pleasurable. Thanks for coming to our Me, Myself and I class each week, and…keep writing!


Sheila A. Donovan On January 15, 2017 at 11:32 am

Prejudice is a word derived from pre-judge. People pre-judge those that they do not know, or are a different color, religion or nationality. I was surprised to find out that there’s prejudice against the blind. Well, you showed them!!

bethfinke On January 15, 2017 at 11:43 am

Interesting. Never thought about people being prejudiced against the blind, just figured they were scared of blindness.


Mel Theobald On January 15, 2017 at 1:09 pm

Beth, I’ve been reading your blogs for awhile now, and have to say, this is one of the most explicit and hard hitting to date. You have really identified something in all of us that needs attention. “Fear” nor “prejudice” come to my mind so much as “ignorance.” As much as anything, you are engaging all of us in a valuable conversation, not only about blindness, but about our humanness. It was very powerful reading the words, “we can’t take the blindfold off.” That is a commanding thought. Blindness is not limited to the eyes. You see much better than most of us what is true and beautiful.

bethfinke On January 15, 2017 at 1:18 pm

Wow. What a lovely, thoughtful comment, Mel. You are so right: ignorance is the word I’m looking for here. Thank you for reading our blog posts, these thoughtful comments of yours encourage me to keep writing.


piwright04gmailcom On January 15, 2017 at 1:33 pm

Guess I should feel fortunate that I got to meet one of the 1.3 million. But really lucky that I got to meet you Beth! Another insightful blog. Living life with a fear response can be so limiting. Taking a queue from you, approach life with optimism as your first assumption.

bethfinke On January 15, 2017 at 1:40 pm

Well, maybe it takes one to know one? Seems to me you’ve always approached life with optimism yourself, my friend…


Regan Burke On January 16, 2017 at 12:59 pm

I have always been afraid of going blind, Beth. Knowing you eases that fear so your personal advocacy – getting out there – is exactly what changes us. What a privilege to know you.

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