For her birthday, on December 23 1983, I gave Beth a brand new Peugeot bicycle. It was a dandy ride—a lovely light blue, classic upright riding position, folding saddle baskets, three speeds. Perfect for the young and lovely university professional who wanted to commute to campus and run errands on her bicycle.
She loved that bike. But Beth only got one good season out of it, then the diabetic retinopathy put an end to her riding days. We eventually gave it to an exchange student at the university. Beth wasn’t sentimental about many things after losing her sight, but somehow the presence of that bicycle gave us both stomach aches, so we got rid of it.
Back then, can’t remember exactly what year, our good friend Greg Schafer called one day and said he’d spotted a Schwinn Twinn tandem in one of those weekly ad papers. He and I took a look, and I took possession.
We’ve had a tandem ever since. Just this past Saturday, we schlepped our big long bike out of the basement of our building and rode to another hood for a terrific breakfast. Later we headed out on and did some grocery shopping.
It was a swell day. But. Our tandem bicycles—the Twinn lasted a long time but we’re on our third now—have been, in a very real way, a telling representation of how Beth’s blindness changes things, and how it doesn’t.
On the one hand, it’s cool we can go for rides together. And Beth still gets that feeling of the wind in her hair. On the other, it’s a circumstance that’s dictated. It’s not like we rode a tandem and fell in love with riding together one day. Back on the first hand, it’s another example of how adaptation can help fill gaps left by Beth’s disability. On the thumbs down side, like most of the adaptations—a talking computer, audio books—it’s not the same.
For Beth, she has to follow my lead and put an enormous amount of trust in me. She can’t just go for a ride if she feels like it. I have to feel like it, too. And even recruiting other friends isn’t a great solution—because in truth, it takes some practice to ride these things safely, and you have to learn to work together.
It hasn’t always been easy. And it’s sort of representative of a lot of the give and take we’ve had to work through. I have short stocky legs and prefer a faster pace in a lower gear. Beth likes pedaling slower at higher gears. I like to coast when Beth likes to get on the crank. I have to be vigilant about traffic and such, she’s just pedaling away.
And so on. It’s like that in other scenarios off the bike. It just is. And I wish it weren’t so. But it is. It’s not what we’d choose if we had the power. But we don’t. It’s the best we can do. And it’s pretty good.
Good morning, guys! My Kindle was out of juice, and I just HAD to have something to read, so I went to my library and picked out “Long Time, No See.” It held up very well. Love to you both, Karen
Beth says thanks on the LTNS re-read. I think she’s afraid to read it again for fear of it having no aged well. Hope all is well.
Beth taught me how to tandem ride! I so appreciated her patient instructions on how it all worked. Like you said “it is, and it was pretty good.”
Loved today’s blog, Mike. And from what I can tell, you two are not just doing pretty good but plenty good.
Thanks SBG.
I think of you two every time I see a tandem!
Wonderful piece. There are many things that can’t be changed and we learn to live with them (hopefully) – but it is not the same. That doesn’t mean you are mourning the past. You change and go on. But no, it is not the same. Lois
Thanks Lois. That’s what I was hoping would come across.
Compromise seems to be a part of life’s journey doesn’t it? Maybe more so for you and Mike. Anyway I hope you were able to enjoy your bike ride. Monna
Ah, your entry touched my hear, the bike is a symbol of life’s adjustments.
My husband of many years is struggling with Alzheimer’s D. and up to recently we could still bike on our individual bicycles.
But Roy fell off the other day, not having seen a pothole…and I was beginning to consider a Tandem. After reading your adventures I am rethinking the process. Tank you. Maybe we’ll do a test ride.
Annelore
Dandy bike! We need another Printers Row ride sometime soon.
Well said
That is cool. I’ve always wanted to ride a tandem. Your post makes me better appreciate the challenges and the ways you and Beth work together to make things work.
Love reading this blog, but this post hit a tender spot in my heart. Having recently lost my functional vision, biking is one of the toughest things I have had to give up. My heart aches whenever I see a biker, or friends head out on their bikes. I was an avid long distance biker and when the kids were little they were on a seat behind me. My husband has not adapted yet to accommodations. I am working hard to find ways to continue the things I love, but this post is so very realistic.
I appreciate the honest presentation of the lost activities (as they were before Beth’s vision loss) and the acceptance and embracing of the new form a beloved activity may take.
Based on what I read in LTNS it has been quite a journey.
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