Mondays with Mike: They said it's my birthday
June 8, 2015 • 9 Comments • Posted in Mike Knezovich, Mondays with Mike, UncategorizedLast week I turned 58. The birthdays all seem to be one big blob now. The exuberant 16th, 18th and 21st are long forgotten milestones. Thirty, forty and fifty were, I guess, somewhat noteworthy. But now, I don’t think much about them. The writer Richard Ford referred to this stage of life as “the permanent period” in his novel “The Lay of the Land.” That seems about right.
It’s not that there aren’t things to look forward to. Or that every year will be the same. Or that there is no significance in 58. For one thing, I like the look and sound of the number 58 better than 57. So that’s something.
Another is that my father was 58 when he had a massive heart attack. He lived, I’m happy to say. But it took months before he recovered to the point where he could go in for quadruple bypass surgery, and then recover again. It was my first awakening to mortality, and my first full appreciation of how much I loved him, and just what a good guy he was.
So I thought about that. And I received some simple but priceless little messages—emails, texts—from my old friends, near and far. My college roommate whom I don’t see often enough. My nephew, whom I’ll never see often enough for my satisfaction. My good friends from my days living in Northern Virginia and working in D.C.
Of course, there’s Beth, who loves her birthday so much that she’s taught me how to enjoy my own. I’m always happy to see one more year together on the horizon.
And that’s what birthdays are good for these days. Gratitude. Deep, enveloping gratitude—it’s no substitute for spry youth, but spry youth isn’t a substitute for it, either. And it’s this kind of gratitude that, I think, can only be earned, felt, and understood over some significant time and living as well as one can.
This permanent period ain’t all bad.