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Mondays with Mike: In the flesh

November 1, 20212 CommentsPosted in Mike Knezovich, Mondays with Mike

I’ve missed a couple Mondays recently, and for that, I apologize. The first was owed to exhaustion. On October 10 I left for Tarrytown, New York, the start of a weeklong effort to put on…gulp…an in-person conference. The non-profit I work for—Phiusputs on an annual conference and after a virtual shindig last year, we gathered again. We limited it to smaller-than-usual numbers, and I’m happy to report it was an enormous success. But I returned a week later utterly exhausted, like my co-workers.

We had 400 people and 30 exhibitors, and they all behaved. Masks were worn, and the weather cooperated, allowing us to gather outside between sessions and soak up beautiful weather in the Hudson Valley.

We were near Tappan Zee, a three-mile-wide span of the Hudson River. On the evening of the last day of the conference,

The Tappan Zee bridge from our riverside soiree perch (that’s the moon on the right–it was a nice nightL). To see the NYC skyline, we needed  only to swivel our heads left.

we held a ticketed party at a former factory building that had been converted to a bistro. We owned the place that night. And again, the weather was fantastic. We had enough indoor space for all of us, but we mostly were outside on the third-floor deck or at  tables on the shore of the Hudson. To our right was the spectacularly lit Tappan Zee bridge, and to our left was the New York City Skyline.

It was the cherry on top of a luscious sundae.

We made a decision earlier this year to forge ahead. No virtual conference. No Zoom. No virtual rooms or virtual trade shows.

The months and then weeks in advance brought nightmares about what could go wrong. There was good reason to fret. To start, the hotel had lost its affiliation with Hilton in the midst of Covid. And like everyone in the hospitality business, they couldn’t get staff.

Several weeks before the event, the remnants of Hurricane Ida tore through, dropping eight inches of rain in a few hours, and flooding the lower level of the hotel—where we’d intended to hold some breakout sessions.

And of course, the pandemic.

Somehow, we pulled it off. Our constituents are smart and ethical, so we were confident of a high vaccination rate and of thoughtful behavior at the event.

Knock wood, no illness reported thus far.

We have received reports of elation. About the joy of being in the same place at the same time. About richly rewarding and productive serendipitous conversations that can only happen in person. That can’t happen at intentional virtual meetings.

It’s a new world, I get that. And one where we probably should meet less often, fly less, generate fewer emissions, and make the most of technology.

But don’t ever give in to the last couple years becoming the new normal. I’ve never seen such joy and energy as I did in New York.

We need each other, in three dimensions.

Senior Class: Slidin’ Home with Deborah Perry

October 28, 20219 CommentsPosted in baseball, guest blog, memoir writing, travel, writing prompts

With baseball season coming to a close, I asked writers in the class I lead via Zoom to choose a baseball term to use as a title for (and the subject of) an essay. A retired school teacher who was active in her union chose “Strike,” a writer who shoplifted as a kid chose “Caught Stealing,” and many others chose “Safe at home.” Deborah Perry was the only one in class who opted for “Slide,” and I am pleased to introduce her as our Senior Class guest blogger today.

First, some background: Deborah, her two sisters and one brother were all born in America but raised in Rhodesia (now Zimbabwe) when their parents became missionaries there. Living first at Chikore Mission Station, they later moved to Mt. Selinda Mission Station, a tiny village in the middle of Africa’s southernmost tropical rainforest.

Deborah and her siblings live in different parts of the United States now: Deborah is in Chicago and is a regular in the memoir class I lead here. When we switched to Zoom in 2020, she encouraged her two sisters (one in Maine, the other in Massachusetts) to enroll, too. Lucky for us, they said yes. Now our class gets to hear about life in Rhodesia from three different perspectives every week, and today you Safe & Sound blog readers get to enjoy Deborah’s playful “slide” essay, too.

by Deborah Perry

Laid out in a broad, gentle arc in front of the house, the dirt driveway glistened during a brief interlude from the early morning downpour. The rainy season had begun, and when the rain started up again, globs of deep red African mud erupted from the shimmering puddles like exclamation points.

We loved the rainy season.

Deborah, today’s guest blogger, is on the left.

Following every dry winter season we’d celebrate the forest’s hydration, the warm air washing over us. Soon the long grass at the edge of the driveway would turn bright green and the jacaranda tree in the side yard would burst forth in ridiculously intense purple waves.

But the color of this day was a deep brick red. The morning crept along, rain pummeled the road, mud splattered in all directions, and the four of us children cooped up inside grew weary of the days-long Monopoly game spread out on the dining room table.

Hitching up the hems of the skirts of our dresses and tucking them out of the way into our underpants, we burst out of the house and ran down the driveway. Our bare feet pounded the road until we came to the longest, deepest mud puddle of them all.

One at a time, we hit the edge and catapulted ourselves into a long skid. Over and over, each slide compacted the red clay mud into a firmer and faster surface. Finally, exhausted, we collapsed into a giggling mass, soaked in Africa’s rich, red, clay mud.

Dry winter season activities could be as much fun as the sloppy mud puddles. On some of those dry, cooler winter days we’d spread out face down along the edges of the road, the sun warming our backs as we stared, mesmerized, into the depths of tiny funnel-shaped indentations in the dirt. Hidden at the tip of each conical trap was a patient ant lion, a miniature compact but formidable pincered insect waiting for its next meal to tumble in.

Soon enough, an inattentive ant would lose its footing and begin a frantic scramble, trying to escape up the slippery-sided slope. Tiny grains of cascading sand would send a signal that lunch was on its way. The intrepid ant lion would start throwing bits of sand up the sides, exacerbating the sliding sand and ensuring the ant would lose its footing and slip down to the bottom, where it would unceremoniously become lunch.

On other sunny winter days, we’d grab a bucket of water and start digging in the dry, crumbly clay along the edge of the driveway to build curvy roads for our Dinky trucks and cars to travel along. The miniature mud and twig villages inhabited by imaginary families came next, complete with lawns made of soft green moss. Lorries and delivery trucks careened down tiny roads, around curves, screeching to a halt in front of ramshackle abodes. We’d sometimes carve a hole near a hovel so it would have its own swimming pool, slicking down the bottom until it was smooth enough to hold water.

That dirt road, our driveway, was our playground, and while I can not claim to be “mwana wevhu” – a child of the African soil — I do feel a deep connection to the African dirt.

Mondays with Mike: Anniversaries

October 25, 20212 CommentsPosted in Uncategorized

Last night we attended a celebration of the wedding anniversary of two people who’d been legally married for 30 years but spiritually married for longer.

There were lots of people. Who behaved mask-wise. And people who knew they could trust they were in a safe space. You know what I mean.

We met this anniversary pair serendipitously years ago. And the arc of their lives more or less traced the arc of mine and Beth’s. They’d met at U of I. The four of us had worked at the same places. Just a few years apart. (Beth and I are older. Damn.)

They both gave toasts. They were both great. I was struck by one passage. A preface:  “I’d had girlfriends in high school, but I reached the stage where I thought, “What’s the point?” He went on to explain that you’d start dating, with the idea in the back of your mind that this isn’t going to go anywhere.

He explained that they worked together, and before they were lovers/partners whatever you want to call it, they were friends.

I was immediately clued into why we are friends. I met Beth in a journalism class. We got to know each other with no goals or agendas. We stayed in touch, and we were ourselves. By the time we reconnected, I had decided it would be OK if I never had a life partner.

And that’s part of how we got to where we are.

So, to our dear friends, thanks for that celebration, for being our friends, and here’s to many more years.

 

Mondays with Mike: Back in the Ballgame

October 11, 20211 CommentPosted in baseball, Mike Knezovich, Mondays with Mike

Hello from Beth: After yesterday’s late-night Chicago White Sox season-saving 12 to 6 playoff victory over the Houston Astros, Mike is away on Cloud Nine. For today’s Mondays with Mike feature, we’re reblogging a post he wrote July 20, 2020. Things sure were a lot different then!

15 months ago there were More people in the outfield than in the bleachers.

by Mike Knezovich

Originally published on July 20, 2020

Last night, I watched the White Sox beat the Cubs in an exhibition game, part of the teams’ preparation for a truncated season. That season will be 60 games, if they’re lucky enough to finish; a normal season is 162 games.

There were no drunken brawls between the contentious fan bases in the stands, because there were no fans. Foul balls that reached the seats just bounced around.

The game was played at Wrigley Field, but the announcers we chose to watch sat in a booth at White Sox park and called the game from screens. Crowd noise was piped in through the PA system at Wrigley so the players and the viewers could hear it. Many players sat in stadium seats just behind the dugout to avoid crowding to keep them all spaced at safe distance. The organ played, but I don’t know if it was live or pre-recorded bursts.

On the one hand it was completely, utterly, weird. On the other hand, a great pitch looked like it always has, and so did a home run.

Though I still have mixed feelings about the endeavor—trying this hard for normalcy in abnormal times makes me dizzy—I’ll confess, I found it glorious.

Without most all the trappings associated with a typical MLB game and broadcast, I was delighted that the game remains the game. Jason Benetti and Steve Stone, the White Sox announcers, were so ecstatic about being back in the game that the weirdness took a back seat. (Benetti is practiced in remote baseball broadcasting—he’s been calling Korean games from home in the wee hours of the morning for a couple months now for ESPN.)

I don’t know how long it’ll last. They haven’t played a single real game yet. There has been no travel. The whole thing is fraught. And I hope no one suffers for the effort. I wouldn’t wish covid on my worst enemy (OK, there is one exception).

But for one night, baseball.

Senior Class: The Word That Changed My Life, by Bill Gordon

October 6, 20214 CommentsPosted in guest blog, memoir writing, travel, visiting libraries

Today’s guest blogger, Bill Gordon

I am pleased to Welcome Bill Gordon back as a guest blogger today. Born and raised in Kansas, Bill lived all over the country during his nearly 50-year career in library and association management. When he retired in 2002, he was the Executive Director of The American Library Association, located here in Chicago, and has called Chicago home ever since. Bill has been in one or another of my memoir-writing classes since 2013. We’ve come to know each other very well over the years, and after he celebrated his 85th birthday with a few friends last month he sent me a short note. “For entertainment, I decided to read a few of my essays out loud for those friends,” it said. “I wasn’t certain that I should, but it turned out to be a hit. Who knew??”

He needn’t have been surprised. Bill’s essays are always well-written, sometimes witty, sometimes sentimental, always thought-provoking. I hope this was one he read that night, and I thank him for giving me permission to share it here with you Safe & Sound blog readers today.

by Bill Gordon

From the plateau of eighty-five years old I am looking across the decades of my life to see which changes altered my course, changed my direction, upended my plans.

The death of my father when I was a teenager and the devastating financial changes it caused to our lives? Finding myself on my own at eighteen? Marriage? Divorce? Moving six times? Criss-crossing the country for my career? Starting a new life over and over as I moved from city to city? My nearly two-year long travel adventure around the world? Crippling disability? Confinement to a wheelchair? No, none of these changed my life like this one word did:

HOMOSEXUAL.

In 1949 I was an eighth grader at Liberty Jr. High in Hutchinson, Kansas. Lunch was not provided in the public schools, so I had to race home nine blocks, eat lunch and return to school within an hour.

Our first mail delivery of the day — we received two a day in 1949 — was at 10:00 in the morning, so I could peruse the mail while eating lunch.

Many households like ours subscribed to periodicals to supplement what we heard on the radio and read in the daily newspaper. Reader’s Digest was among our magazine subscriptions. Unlike other publications, the table of contents was listed on the Digest’s cover

The memory of one particular lunch time is unforgettable. Among the articles listed on the cover of the Digest was one titled “Homosexuality: The Scourge of America.” I had never seen that word before, but I instantly knew it had something to do with me.

With no time to read the article I raced back to school and spent the afternoon exhausted by anxiety…and eager to have a chance to read the article.

The news was worse than I imagined. The three well-known medical professionals who wrote the article suggested such things as lobotomies, castration, exile, conversion therapy, and institutionalization for all homosexuals. They classified homosexuals as perverts, mentally ill, and contemptible people who engaged in unnatural, illegal acts.

From an early age — perhaps four or five — I knew there was something different about me. As I grew older, I realized I was sexually drawn to both males and females. My early explorations were with boys, a fairly normal maturing process, as it turns out. But then why did my groin tingle just as much when I looked at Janis as it did when I looked at Charlie?

My examination of the card catalog at the Hutchinson Public Library frightened me even more. Under the heading Homosexual it said “see Mental Illness and Criminal Activity.” A surreptitious examination of the literature seemed to confirm that acting on my sexual impulses would mean I was mentally ill and, perhaps, a criminal. But how could that be? I felt I was mentally fit and a law-abiding citizen. Now that I had a word to apply to what or who I was, what was I to do?

My first impulse was to run away. The last thing I wanted to be was an embarrassment to my parents. But running away was not realistic. That would cause my parents anxiety and embarrassment. Suicide never crossed my mind — I liked myself too much. A curious kid, I wanted to see what tomorrow might hold.

What I did know was that I had to hide who I really was.

Permanent change took place for me the moment I saw the word “homosexual.” No more living an authentic life. From then on I intuitively understood I had to disguise anything about myself that might give me away. Being “normal” was the part I would have to play forever. I would have to learn to lie and alter the truth to meet others’ expectations.

My self-imposed rules became: be careful what you say, watch how you walk, notice what you wear, be careful not to stand out, develop a persona that will match what you believe is expected of you, do not have close friends, do your best to fit in or be invisible, be the best student you can be as a defense, do not react if teased or taunted. Feeling I had to live with so many rules, life became exhausting, but I knew somehow I was up to it.

Luck has often been on my side, and as luck would have it, I have led, from my point of view, a fascinating life filled with adventure, friendships, success, and most of all love. I have had the good fortune of being able to adapt, adjusting as the rules changed.

Looking back over these many years, I am comforted knowing that, most important of all, I have loved and been loved with depth and passion. Who could want more?