Today Jeanette’s an avid reader.

Sharon Kramer’s guest post last week received so much positive attention that we’re going to stick with the “back to school” theme. The essay Sharon’s fellow writer Jeannette Williams wrote about struggling to read as a child comes with a glorious triumphant ending you won’t want to miss.

by Jeannette Williams

Ahh, reading. Was I ever read to? I don’t remember. My father was illiterate, and my mother worked from three p.m to 11 p.m. We never saw her after school.

Mother was never home when my daddy made us read to him. He could barely write his own name. Starting with the capital G, lower case e, o, r, then another capital G, then ending with lower case e. GeorGe. He signed his last name in all capital letters: B, R, O, W, N.BROWN.

So yes, he could manage to spell his name, but that didn’t save us from his idea of us reading the mail to him. We had to read it to him before we could go out and play.

Maybe he thought he was giving us reading lessons? I don’t know.

We got mail from L. Fish Furniture, Sears, and sometimes from our next door neighbors: George and Bertie Moore. He’d start with my sister Judy, since she was the oldest. She was only in the sixth grade, and when she ran across a big word like “manufacture” or something, she’d pause.

“What’s the matter?” he’d scream.

“Don’t know,” she’d say.

“Why?”

“Just, don’t know.”

“Oh,” he’d shout. “Go and sit on the couch. No outside for you. And you better not cry.”

Then he’d call Jerry. He was younger than my sister but older than me. Daddy would give him the same letter my sister tried to read. Just like my sister, he’d get stuck at the same word. But Jerry would stutter and cry.

“Dummy,” Daddy would say. “Go sit by your sister.”

When it was my turn, I’d run kicking and screaming from the room and hide under the bed. Did this make me a better reader? No. It only made me afraid to pick up a book.

But somehow I managed to succeed

In spite of my father’s reading lessons, I managed to become a Licensed Practical Nurse, and then a Registered Professional Nurse. I read everything I could get my hands on — and then some more!

I may not have been able to read in childhood, but I made up for it in adulthood.

As blog readers know from last Monday’s post, last week was not a happy one for me.

Emotional dips happen to everyone I know from time to time. In these circumstances, the dips are deeper. Lots of us get miserable now and then, but to quote an old saw, misery loves company.

Beats hell out of misery alone.

We had a lovely Labor Day weekend here in Chicago, where we had two perfect days wrapped around a rainy one.

We did our thing with neighborhood friends where we bring down camp chairs to our little park below our apartment window and have a distanced pot luck. These friends are ones we’d be picnicking with at Summer Dance—which ain’t happening this year. Among them are what I’d call professional urban picknickers—they have some major equipment that includes a portable serving table and coolers. And…elegant battery-powered candles.

The food was fantastic, the company better.

Sunday we heard some scrumptious music at Jazz Showcase. This was courtesy of our local friends Al and Donna. They buy tickets for every weekend show (whether or not they can attend) to support the Jazz Showcase.

They gave us their tickets because they could not attend. The Showcase doesn’t serve food, so it can’t serve alcohol under the current limit. But it fights on, serving music from Thursday to Sunday each week, encouraging attendees to order non-alcoholic drinks and bring food they’ve ordered to-go from local restaurants. And folks are distanced.

Today Beth and I Zipcarred to the north suburbs for a distanced cookout on our suburban friends’ lovely deck. Labor Day was busy for Zipcar—we had to walk farther than usual to get ours. But Luna loved the walk.

When we arrived, we walked around the side of the house to our friends’ deck. They’d set two tables, one for them, one for us, separated by a safe but still close-enough distance to have a good conversation. We’d not seen each other since you-know-what started. We had a lot of catching up to do, and it was delightful doing it. The grilled salmon and scallops, veggies and salad weren’t bad, either.

One of our hosts hadn’t been with her mother, who lives in an assisted living facility, until two weeks ago. (They’d done the through-the-window thing.)

We told her and her husband that with luck, we’d see our son Gus this coming Saturday. I say “luck,” because we had to submit a request that must still be approved, and the weather has to comply—we can see him on the backyard deck only. But we’re hopeful. We’ve Zoomed with him and staff, and it helps. But it ain’t the same. Let’s hope we never reach the point where we think it does.

Because this weekend reminded me of the power of being at the same place, at the same time, with people you love.

Today’s blogger, Sharon Kramer.

I mentioned Sharon Kramer in Wednesday’s post — she is a graduate of the online Beth Finke Memoir Teacher MasterClass, and leads the Wednesday “Me, Myself and I” memoir-writing class on Zoom. Here she is now with a timely guest post about her first days of school back in 1945.

A Bad Start

by Sharon Kramer

In 1945 when I was ready to start kindergarten, I lived in a Chicago neighborhood that was secretly — and not so secretly — anti-Semitic. On my first day of school, an older boy called me a “dirty Jew.” I came home and cried. I had no idea what that meant but I knew it was bad.

The next day the same thing happened — with more voices. On the third day, I didn’t want to go to school. My mother kept me home for the rest of the year.

Kindergarten was no treasure for today’s guest blogger.

So, I never had the kindergarten experience, getting along with other kids, sharing paints, sitting in a circle. We moved to a different neighborhood, and when my mother tried to register me for 1st grade, she was told I wasn’t eligible because I had no kindergarten experience. I was put in a grade called 1C.

In 1946, the Chicago Public Schools had 1B’s for fall entrance, 1A’s for spring entrance and, I guess, 1C’s were designated as the “we don’t know where to put this kid so let’s put him in 1C” class. The 1C class at Peterson School was a small windowless room in the basement, next to the janitor’s closet. There were 12 boys and me. The boys were placed there because they disrupted the kindergarten class or couldn’t get along with others or refused to follow instructions. Miss Einhorn was the teacher. My desk was in the middle of the room, and I did my best to stay inconspicuous and said nothing the whole time I was there. I don’t recall any learning taking place. The boys were wild forces of nature, jumping on desks or fighting over a pencil or talking back to poor Miss Einhorn. Imagine a room full of six and seven-year-old characters like Don Rickles, Eddie Murphy and Richard Simmons all craving attention at the same time! The principal was often called to drag someone to his office or call a mother.

One day, Miss Einhorn, bless her heart, called my mother and told her to get me out of 1C. My mother marched to the principal’s office and demanded that I be put in a different class.

I was.

I would like to report that I thrived in 1B. Truth is, I missed the excitement of 1C. Now I sat near girls with folded hands and boys who stayed in their seats. The 1B classroom had windows, it was on the first floor, but it was a bit boring, even though we learned stuff.

The stigma of 1C stayed with me. I felt overwhelmed in a school setting and often just stared at what was going on around me instead of participating. 1C taught me that the safest route in life is to become as invisible as possible. I’ve missed out on a lot of adventures because of this perception of the world.

An early experience has the potential of changing you forever or maybe not at all. We never know. Schools — are you listening?

In his guest post last week, Michael Graff said that when the idea of teaching memoir via Zoom first came up, “Beth was skeptical.” A very generous description there. Had I been editing his rough draft, it’d look like this :

Beth was skepticalstubborn.

Even before COVID, many people were suggesting I offer online courses in addition to in-person ones. “You could get people from all over the country,” they’d say. “You could charge a lot, and you wouldn’t even have to leave home.” Not leave home? Being with my writers is what I love most about teaching memoir. You’re right there, sensing the emotion from writers as they read personal essays out loud. As the class continues, you feel a certain trust develop in a room of people who once were strangers. You witness friendships growing.

”Thanks for the suggestion,” I told those computer-screen addicts back then. “It just won’t work for me.”

But they wouldn’t give up. “You can see everyone,” they’d continue, describing how an online class works. “You can watch their reactions right from home”

“But I can’t see!” I’d remind them. And that’s where the conversation would end.

But then, COVID happened.

When Wanda’s Wednesday class was cancelled in March, Sharon Kramer, a writer in that class and a graduate of the Beth Finke Memoir Teacher MasterClass, stepped up to the plate. She volunteered to teach her fellow writers how to use Zoom, and she’s been leading that class via Zoom ever since. I could hug her for keeping that class going.

Not now, though. Sigh.

Writers in two other classes I lead generously offered to stand in and lead classes via Zoom for me during COVID, too. Then Michael Graff (last week’s guest blogger) and his classmate Hugh Brodke lobbied to have me lead a trial Zoom class for Village Chicago. The trial class would be a good way to determine if it’s possible for people who are blind to teach using Zoom, they said. Writers could sign up to see if they’d like Zooming enough to commit to a six-week session.

I passed the audition.

Months later, I am leading three classes a week from home via Zoom. How does a person who can’t see manage to give writing prompts, interact with the writers, field questions, and keep tabs on who is (and isn’t) paying attention? Here’s how:

• Zoom has a dedicated accessibility team. Thanks to the efforts of people on that accessibility team, Zoom services are compatible with the standard screenreaders I use: VoiceOver on my iPhone, and JAWS on my PC
• When each writer arrives at the meeting, JAWS barks out their name in my headphone, a la “Alfred E. Newman has joined the meeting,” which allows me to keep track of who hasn’t arrived yet.
• Ditto when people sneak out early, as in “Alfred E. Newman has left the meeting.”
• I use keyboard shortcuts to mute and unmute myself.
• Most writers were in class when we were meeting in person, so I am familiar with — and can identify them by — their voices.
• Writers I have never met in person email their essays my way for editing before class, going over their written work ahead of time gives me an idea of who they are, and I’m learning to match their speaking voice with their writing voice.
• Limiting the essays to 500 words helps class, ahem, zoom by.
• Participants are far less likely to get bored or restless or make unnecessary noise when class zooms by like that.
• The high-quality headphones I use allow me to hear each writer clearly as they read their essays.
• The microphone attached to those headphones is high-quality, too, so everyone can hear me.
• Writers in my classes are not shy about telling me to raise or lower my screen so they can see my entire face rather than only my chin or forehead.

But if you want to know the real reason I’ve been successful leading Zoom classes, it’s this: a writer in each Zoom memoir class I lead volunteers to act as host and moderator. They set up the Zoom class, they know how to mute everyone in class while simultaneously unmuting the writer who is reading their piece, and can contact me in-between classes to rat out anyone who was taking a catnap or filing their nails or reading the paper or watching TV while a fellow writer was reading their essay. Writers in my Zoom classes: consider yourselves warned!

So a huge thank you to my hosts and moderators: Ellen Schweri, Regan Burke, and Michael Graff. I couldn’t do it without you. Zoom is working, yes, but I do look forward to sharing our stories in person again. And to that hug with Sharon, too.

First, apologies for the absence last week. To be honest, stuff got to me.

Second: The stuff.

Beth and I have faced a lotta stuff. What distinguished us early in our lives is that we experienced medical stuff pretty early in our lives. We did not have contemporaries who grasped it. But we were young. Resilient.

Now, it’s like the Doors song: “No One Here Gets Out Alive.” Or without a health crisis. And man, it’s hard watching.

We’ve had two friends diagnosed with serious forms of cancer during this COVID thing. And a relative who also entered the hospital for less dramatic, but trying, circumstances.. We’ve reached the point where there  are now visiting hours, once a patient is admitted to a room, but early on there was not. And in the ER, people are still their own. You watch them march off with a stranger.

A friend lost a mother in assisted living and hadn’t been able to spend quality time for months. A friend has a father in assisted living and sees the father through glass. We have not seen our son Gus since February.

These policies that keep us apart, I’m certain, are wise.

These people, who act irresponsibly about masks and the like, are not.